Feelings.. for "YOU"

it's so obvious that you're worried about something.
it's written all over your face that you're lost and troubled.
but..
no matter how many times i ask about it, you won't tell me a thing.
you're lying when you say you're not lost or troubled.

everybody has something they keep secret, even from their closest friend.
if you want to keep it a secret, i think all i can do is wait for you.

that's what annoys me so much!!
i'm sure i could help you, at least a little.
anything would be fine, i'm sure.
even if i can't do anything about whatever it is.
at the very last, we can all worry about it together.

if all i can do is wait, then..

i'll just stay angry while i'm waiting.

angry at the sadness of not being able to understand your feelings.

and at you, for not being able to rely on the strength of your (best) friend.

i really do like you, don't i????

because you were there for me, i was no longer alone.
yeah..
is it the same for you????

Curcol #1

seharian tidur capek juga ternyata. badan masih pegel2 lagi, habis kegiatan lapangan kemarin.. ckckck
but, at least, ud punya sedikit moment untuk kenang2an dimasa yang akan datang <ma siapa hayo..^^>

sekarang malah jadi bingung, sebenarnya aku harus gimana ya??
hmm.. kenapa harus kepikiran macem2 sih..
niy otak sebenarnya maunya apa sih?? kok rebet banget perasaan..
kadang dah kompromi buat nglupain sesuatu, eh..tiba2 muncul lagi..
kadang dah yakin kalau diri ini fine2 aja, eh..tiba2 going down lagi..
hadeuh.. apa emang niy otak ud g beres ya??
ah, semoga saja enggak.. jadi apa aku tanpa otak yang kusayang ini, alhamdulillah..^^

trus, apa donk solusinya..
pengen curhat, g ada temennya..
pengen main, g ada temennya..
pengen tidur, g ada temennya..<pengenya sama 'itu' sih..^^>
so, akar permasalahannya tu di temen ya??
iya nih, mana sih yang namanya temen.. masa temennya lagi error kek gini g ada yang tahu sih..

si temen : emang kamu juga nganggep kami temenmu??

nganggep sih iya, tapi.. hmm.. susah ngejelasinnya..
lha gimana ya.. aku sebenarnya juga susah mengungkapkan jati diriku yang sebenarnya..
rasa takut yang amat.. terutama tentang masalah 'itu'..
siapa yang berani ngomong klw hidup disekitar orang yang membenci 'karakter' itu..
ya yang paling aman jadi 'pretender' kan..
apapun ditanggung sendiri.. baik yang seneng maupun yang sedih.. g ada orang yang tau sih.. T.T
nasib dah.. harus diterima dengan ikhlas, ya g???^^

Lonely....

lagu sedih lagi nih.. T.T
dari 2NE1.. videonya cari sendiri aje ye...

jigeum naega haneun yaegi
neol apeuge halji molla
ama nal jukdorok miwohage doel kkeoya

naega yejeon gatji antadeon ne mal
modu teullin mareun aniya
nado byeonhaebeorin naega nat seolgimanhae

neomu chakhan neonde neon geudaeroinde Oh

I don’t know I don’t know
naega wae ireoneunji

geutorok saranghaenneunde neon yeogi inneunde Oh

I don’t know
ije nal chatgo sipeo

Baby I’m sorry neowa isseodo nan lonely
saranghagin naega bujokhanga bwa
ireon motnan nal yongseohae

I’m sorry ige neowa naui story
sarangiran naegen gwabunhanga bwa
ne gyeote isseodo

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

nega jalmotan ge anya
naega isanghan geoya
imi orae jeonbuteo nan junbi haenna bwa ibyeoreul

jeongmal jalhaejugo sipeonneunde
hapil sarang apeseoneun wae
ireoke haneobsi jagajigo oerounji

neomu chakhan neonde neon geudaeroinde Oh

I don’t know I don’t know
naega wae ireoneunji

geutorok saranghaenneunde neon yeogi inneunde Oh

I don’t know
ije nal chatgo sipeo

Baby I’m sorry neowa isseodo nan lonely
saranghagin naega bujokhanga bwa
ireon motnan nal yongseohae

I’m sorry ige neowa naui story
sarangiran naegen gwabunhanga bwa
ne gyeote isseodo

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Cuz I’m just another girl
i bami werowo nan
deoneun gyeondil su eobseo good bye
Cuz I’m just another girl
neomuna werowo

jigeum ne gyeote isseodo baby I’m so lonely

Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

//

TRANSLATION:

The words I’m saying right now, I don’t know if they’ll hurt you
They’ll probably make you hate me forever
You, saying that I’m not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
I don’t know
I want to find myself now

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

You didn’t do anything wrong, I’m the strange one
It seems I’ve already been prepared long ago, for our breakup
I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I’m confronted by love
I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
I don’t know
I want to find myself now

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely

Cuz I’m just another girl
This night is lonely, I
Can’t take any more, Good bye
Cuz I’m just another girl
I’m so lonely
Even though I’m by your side right now
Baby I’m so lonely
Lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely